I have thought about this a lot since getting married and having Regan. Getting pregnant with her was completely effortless. My biggest fear growing up was that I wouldn't be able to have children simply because I wanted them so bad. All I have ever wanted to be was a wife and a mother and I am so grateful that I am now both. I worried a little bit during this pregnancy that I wouldn't have room in my heart to love another baby as much as I love Regan, silly, I know. But it is hard to wrap my head around it because I love her SO much and she is all I know of motherhood. I am not worried anymore though. I am so excited for this baby, just as excited as I was waiting for Regan. I can't wait to see what she looks like and hold her for the first time. I can't wait for Matt to hold her and to pick a name for her with him. Of course I will love her as much as I love Regan, I already do! And I will love each baby that we are blessed with just as much. Fertility is truly a wonderful gift and my heart breaks for those who struggle with it. I am thinking and writing of this now because of a blog post I just read by a mother of 6, her post is beautifully written! (http://mychildiloveyou.blogspot.com/2009/11/how-can-i-tell-you.html) I will be 37 weeks on Sunday and just had an appointment yesterday. I am already dilated 3 centimeters! She said she won't be surprised if I have this baby next week! We are getting organized today and readying our home to welcome the new little miss whenever she decides to come. I can't wait! I have a few sewing projects I need to blog about, including the matching dresses I made for my girlies, I can't wait to see them together wearing matching outfits!
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